Me, myself and my realisations?? (sounds formal, I know)

A few months back, I wrote a blog called “My annoying self,” where I described my apprehensions about pushing out of my comfort zone – joining a new school. Now that it’s been about more than a term since this major change, I’m writing to let you know that I’m glad I took a deep breath and uttered the words “yes I’ll do it” 5 months back. 

Was it always easy and smooth? No, definitely not. Did I get lost a thousand times before knowing the way around? Ofcourse I did. Do I think I pushed myself out of my comfort zone? Yes. Did that help me or prepare me for college? I think so. Overall, not bad right?

Moving to a new school – where I spend 50% of my time – was truly an emotional rollercoaster. I was initially burdened with feelings of worthlessness, self doubt and concerned as I faced an internal conflict between forcing myself to believe I am good enough and refusing to accept that I cannot possible be at the top all the time. This clubbed with the IB pressure was not easy to handle at first. I often regretted my decision.

However, now that more than 6 months I’m in TISB, I realise that it’s much better fit for me as a school : its aligned with my ambitions, it has given me a far more competitive environment,  its multitude resources have continuously supported me to achieve my goals and prepare me for the tough world outside.  .  It has been a big transition demanding quite a lot out of me. It has kept me on my toes with various curricular and extra curricular activities that pressure tests my bandwidth every single day.  All for the goals I have set and the choices that I would like to have. Sometimes I feel like punching this system which have taken away my childhood in a way, but soon I realize that this has been my choice with no imposition whatsoever. I begin to fight it out again with the hope that I would win.